I'm gonna write some ups and downs. We'll start with the ups (because there's quite a few this time). My brother got married. I got to be a bridesmaid and I flew back up to NY and got to hang around my friends for most of the week I was there. I started school back up. Now I KNOW what I'm gonna do and I'm happy I made the choice to become an English teacher. It just feels RIGHT. Only thing is, I'm confused on how things work at Seminole State. ^_^; I gotta do some stuff with my advisor to change my degree but that's a 40 minute drive and I'm a little confused as to what I actually have to do. But that's ok I still got some time to figure it out. And I joined the Whovian Society of Seminole State. Hopefully I can make some friends in there. Also I made 2 friends at work since my uncle started hiring more girls. (Previously I was the only girl there.) We're planning on going to Universal Studio's Halloween Horror Nights soon. That'll be fun. ^_^
Now for the downs. Since most of you are either my really good friends or people I don't know, I feel comfortable saying this. I've been losing my hair recently. Small chunks have been coming out. My mom thinks its my thyroid but we're not entirely certain. I was supposed to go to a doctor tomorrow but it got cancelled. So we'll have to wait some more. I also suspect I'm probably vitamin D deficient. But that's bones which is probably why my joints crack a lot. lol They don't hurt though when they crack, just sounds gross.
And for the big upset of the day: I asked my neighbor to go to the mall with me and I waited ALL fucking day for her to finish her essay and answer back. ALL FUCKING DAY. She said she'd be ready by 1. Then she said I'll text you when I'm done. 4 o clock comes around when she answers me (after me asking every 15 minutes since 2:30) and the mall closes at 6 and it's a 40 minute drive to get there. All she says is sorry. I didn't think it would take this long to do my essay. It's a college course. BOO FUCKING HOO. I took college courses when I was a senior in hs too. I knew when I was over my head. And I would not wait until the last day to do it especially if I needed sources and shit. And I know she's not going to school tomorrow and when I brought that up she said she had to email her teacher by midnight with the essay. Yeah. Right. Big essays like that with sources and specific formats and everything you need to hand in IN PERSON. That's was how it was like in my AP classes. How else are teachers supposed to write comments in the margins to critique your essay? I do a lot for this girl. I really do. I drove her to her boyfriends more than once (even had a panic attack one time because it was a bad storm). I drove her to the store. I helped get her a job once a month that she otherwise wouldn't ever have. I even buy her lunch/slurpees/bubble tea sometimes. I NEVER get anything in return. I'm always asking her if she wants to go somewhere or do something and she always says "I'm don't feel good" (using her diabetes as an excuse everytime) or "I'm busy", "I'm at my boyfriend's", "I don't have any money". You wouldn't believe how many times I've asked her to go to downtown Disney (just to walk around is free and fun). We never even went. Ever. She's always disappointing me. But she's my only legit friend in Florida. And I can't even call her a friend. My mom is telling me to never do anything for her again. Don't ask her to come in for work. Don't drive her anywhere. Don't ask her to come anywhere. Just forget about her. And my mom expects me to be a little shit to her next time she needs something. But I JUST CAN'T FUCKING DO THAT. It's not in my nature to be mean to people. If they need me, I'm always there, even if they're never there for me. I feel like a shithead though because if I'm mean, I'll feel guilty. If I'm nice, I know I'm just getting used which still makes me feel like shit.